Cancer Journey

Good Bye and God Bless

It has been some time since I last posted….the reason being that this is my last post. The clinical trial medicine ended up having mixed results…until it was decided by the doctors that it was not effective in treating my myeloma. This was my last option, and I have since moved to home hospice. IContinue reading “Good Bye and God Bless”

Praise God for Good News!

(….after fear, doubt and, finally…faith in prayer!) Last week, as I was writing about the Holy Spirit, I was also struggling. And when I say I was struggling, I mean I was struggling in prayer over my very life – was I going to live or die! As a quick update/overview….I have exhausted my treatmentContinue reading “Praise God for Good News!”

I Am Irritable! How About You?

Can I just keep it real? This sucks! Obviously, this sucks! Cancer, Covid-19, isolation, pain, stress and anxiety. We are all going through something right now. For me, I am just plain irritable! Being the savvy patient that I am, with tons of time on my hands, I research irritability with all of the sophisticationContinue reading “I Am Irritable! How About You?”

What REALLY Matters

I have been in the hospital for a month, so it goes without saying that it is good to be home! I went into the emergency room sometime in February with uncontrolled pain. It is a terrible part of my disease that healthy bone marrow is being crowded out by cancer cells. In my case,Continue reading “What REALLY Matters”

Cancer Dance

New Year’s Eve is tomorrow. Ahead is a year unknown. Unknown for everyone, of course, but “life or death” unknown for me. I struggle with fear. My myeloma is rapidly progressing and I am trying desperately to get into a clinical trial. I don’t qualify because my blood counts, specifically my platelets, are too low.Continue reading “Cancer Dance”

Homesick

Friday, September 28, 2018 Is it weird to do an update here? Now? It’s been almost 2 years since my last post. (My mind is going to some movie scene “Father, It’s been 2 years since my last confession.” But I’m not Catholic, so I’ll try to quiet that voice and get on with writing.)Continue reading “Homesick”

60 Days

Friday, November 18, 2016 It is now 60 days post transplant! It is one of those markers that for me means one less medication and being done with my hepa-filter mask in all circumstances.My mom has just left after coming out to help us again. She took me to my driving appointments, practiced in theContinue reading “60 Days”

Losing My Hair

Thursday, August 25, 2016 I am halfway there! I went through the stem cell extraction. It went well – I think. I started off strong with almost no reactions to the chemo. “This is going well.” I thought. “Almost too well…is it working?”. Then it hit hard and fast and all at once. Thursday, AugustContinue reading “Losing My Hair”

Into the Unknown

Monday, July 25, 2016 Today I woke up, looked at the calendar, and started to freak out – this is happening soon! In seven days I start at Stanford! I don’t even really know what I am getting myself into. They have a whole binder dedicated to give “information” about what to expect, but IContinue reading “Into the Unknown”

Rehab: Part 4, Going Home

Wednesday, July 13, 2016 So my first week in rehab ended with Christmas. My second week ended with a release home on New Year’s Day. To quickly sum up the last week: it was about prepping me with the skills to go home. An appointment with me spine doctor to check my incision and healingContinue reading “Rehab: Part 4, Going Home”